Feeling Fine

Hi there. How are you?

I'm quite fine, how are you?

Shall we go back and forth like this with one another? Or shall we stop...and do something else?

We shall do something else.

What?

Just listen. Listen to what begins with you. Ok? Just pay attention for a moment. In the nowness of Eckhart Tolle's forehead.

Why the forehead?

Oh, I'm just being an a*s. Eckart Tolle wrote a book about the philosophical profundity of the experiential now; the moment; the flowness of reality; like a wave; or imagine the milky way galaxy, flowing in it's brilliantly chaotic way. Intimating the secret drive of the Universe.

Ah,...ok. So, what are you doing right now. Hmmmm?

I'm still thinking.

About flow. Or about my interpretation of your experience?

Neither. I don't like you. I don't like where you speak from. You can be shallow and cruel!

I can - I admit that - I'm weak. But you need to relax and just talk for a moment. Ok?

Yes.

So you were saying about the 'experiential now'?

Nothing. I'm over it. Well. There's the whole subtly of imagination. Like, I can't explain how it emerges as it does. I separate myself from myself; I consider possibilities ad infinitum. For-Ever. Anything I want to think about, pop, it pops in my head, I got a picture or a sense of it, and I feel great. This is what I am doing. I am talking to myself. I am being the parent that I didn't have! But who is the I being the parent and to whom? An inner duality; a paradox. Both and yet dialectically heirarchical; the experiential self follows the directive of the attending self. The inner 'observer' - however the hell you want to define that, we all got the sense that we can direct our own minds. And this is the source of whatever it is that makes us sapiens. We can consciously move. Other creatures have selves - with a small s. Embodied cognitions with various different capacities, some more proficient in smell, others in hearing, others in touch. Whales are socially intelligent but I think it would wrong - and implausible - to ascribe the type of attentive awareness that overlooks human scientific, philosophical, and religious creations.

Interesting. And so, what are you trying to get out of this? You're thinking is fabulous; enjoyable to listen to and be a part of; but to what end? What will you do it for?

Aye...The Frankl angle!

Excuse me?

You're throwing existential meaning at me!

I am. And what are you going to do about it?

I'll.................need to act.

Yes.

But I'm afraid.

I know you are.

I feel................weak. To even admit it. To come so close to it, and to risk it. The exposure. I have lived a life of disavowal; breaking apart as I was broken up within.

But you need to face it. You need to understand that this is important. The everything. The everything of everything that you need to think of - is this - this action. This doing. Just do it. Alright?!

It's motivation related.

Yes, it is. But you're the one. The very one you've been talking about. The point in your head; the dot. You do the thinking; you're the imaginer, aren't you? Think up a plan! Imagine and self rehearse. Accept it; go into the rushing waters of the Niagara without concern

That's not a good metaphor...haha!

Haha...yes, you get get point. And I was referring to the rapids of the lower part, by the way.

Ahhhh, touche!

Back to the point: can you find the motivation in you? Face the fear. Stay with it. Acknowledge its presence. Maybe if you stop hiding from it; avoiding it; living with it as if it weren't the bane of your existence. In short, stop playing it easy and get to work!

I'm feeling a movement in me. I think you may have gotten through! Ha! I motivated myself, through myself: Thanks part 2!

You're welcome part 1!

Reviews

[kclyaine]

That was a really encouraging way, to encourage yourself. So did the action you wanted to do, as your subconscious motivates you to conquer your fear, actually happen? Then, i might just follow your style of self motivation.