Scarred Neuron

What within the Neuron
Went wrong?

With a severed leg or a scarred face
I can see and know
"this person is injured"

But what is a scarred neuron?
A Metaphor?

So research shows that cortisol
Damages neurons
In large quantities

Is that what it is?
Is trauma the hidden
Scars of a nervous system
Melted from within
By a stress hormone?

Its tiring, so tiring
Contemplating this question;

Thought and feelings
New types of perception emerge
From different types of feeling

Does the feeling in the body
Hold the key?
Is the thought just a feeling?
Is there necessarily
-physical damage -
In the brain?

But the feeling is so strong!
A broken leg need not mean
A broken self;
No limb or organ
Can deeply tinge the self

But experiences?
Shame. Shame. Repeated
Again and again
At an age where the mind doesn't know
How to hold it away?
No experiences to compensate
Just a deepening, a widening
And a pouring inside me
Of a venomous
Self loathing
Creeping around

Literally
The reptilian brain
Conservative Parasympathetic
Hypo-aroused
into
Deep trance feeling

My wound is hidden;
The mind - effects of its force
Yet just a bundle of nervous fibers
All bunched up

Moments cognitive; dissociated awareness
How to pull away?

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[AprilRN1210]

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