Our Seperate ReturnsA Poem by Michael HowellOur Separate Returns I’ve got a funny feeling a sinking sensation that through the weeks, months, years and through all the places and ideas we’ve been through you knew. You knew this was over before we even began. It's in the way your eyes look at mine but never into them the way your heart never moves and never says a word no matter how much I may kiss it. It's as if I'm kissing a stone statue with a heart of cold silver and gold. There's a certain sanity in your smile a certain symmetry in your face so tangible you can taste it a perfect circle of newspaper and glue Sensible. Normal in its own way but that may be why you're rejecting me in the first place. Because you realize I'm not like you I'm lopsided and full of holes and I'm leaking of the mistakes that brought me here. So it's no surprise to you when I say you left just in time. Any closer to the edge and I would've dragged you in under the water because I realize my words have a way of wrapping around ankles and never letting go; My arms have a way of crushing the oxygen out of lungs and throats. And no, I'm not mad or afraid of your choice to leave, no, my only fear now is your return. Because try as I might, I can't help myself help myself I fear I need someone else to save me and I fear I'll find someone else to save me from me and you'll be in my position in the end you'll be underwater looking up through the distorted waves of the surface and see me walk away. I don't want to lose you I don't want you to lose me And I don't want to see your arm reaching out of the water for a hand of mine that will not come. I know that hell. It's a dark I know well. So just step a little closer to the edge so I don't have to hear you sing this song on my birthday and I don't have to sing this song on your wedding day So you don't sing this song on my funeral day and I don't have to sing it ever again. I know the water's cold but my eyes can give you warmth and this song can sing itself. © 2011 Michael Howell |
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