Conflicted

You hold nothing over me, except everything.

How do you do this to me?

You don't even seem to care.

You pick me up and dust me off,

Only to shatter me on the ground.

Do you love me?

I sure loved you.

But now I think I was stupid,

And I have learned my lesson.

Are you heartless, cause that's how it seems.

Am I just a toy for when your bored?

Your smile sends shivers down my spine,

Your eyes see into my soul...

But those smiles are rarely for me,

And your eyes are always on someone else.

So why do I care? Why do I want you to?

Aren't I too young for this?

So now I bid you adieu

For you don't have my heart

Even if you want it, it's not for you,

My heart is all mine, as it should be.

Don't ask me to rethink my choice,

Don't grab my hand and look me in the eye,

Don't tell me that you do care,

Don't ask me to change my mind.

I know the truth, and I know your heart,

I know that it's not for me, and I don't care

So when I see you, I'll smile and laugh,

I'll pretend we're friends, because it's killing you.

So as you're kissing her and thinking of me,

Know I'm thinking of you too.

I'm thinking of the mistake you were,

Of the time I wasted on you,

And smiling at the boy across from me,

You know-the one who loves me.

Are you happy now? I sure am.

I'd say I wish you the same, but I don't.

I do owe you an apology,

I'm sorry for ever loving you.

Author's Note

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Reviews

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Wow, so amazing, so deep and very emotional. Love it

[Michelle Tarnowski]

Love this piece! Love is ageless and so is the chance of loving the wrong person. I'm 55 and you pretty much summed up the past two years of my life loving someone who pretended to feel the same but turned out to be married. Great job Michaela! Adding it to my favorites!