Guilt

I was never good with guilt. I hate having a guilty conscience, its not like you can get away from it. The guilt follows you. That's basically the only thing that's going through my mind. I know I have to make things better but how? So many things to fix, how can I possibly start with one thing? You have Austin and Nathan, I was a total a-hole to Austin and I might be leading Nathan on. Cher, even though she's pure evil with a capital E, I feel bad for doing what I did with Austin even if they weren't going out at the time. Lindsay, because I totally ditched her afterwards and she was like the only friend I really have. Sad, I know. Still, how do I make things better?

 

I decided to start off with Lindsay, because I knew her the longest and friendship is hard to break. Ok, so I had this perfect Idea on how to patch things up with her. Me and Nathan were making out in the backseat of his car and he tried to go a bit too far. I simply said I like romance and there was no way I will do it in a car. He said that there was this party coming up this weekend and how about then. That's when I had this brain blast. I mean hello it doesn't take a rocket scientist to put two an two together. I thought about how when we were still friends Lindsay invited me to a party so I thought maybe I should invite  her to this party. But how? Uh, duh. Ask Nathan If  I could bring someone- a friend. I knew he wouldn't go for it, it was a total longshot. So we started kissing again and I stopped.

 

"What's wrong?" He asked.

I did this cute pouty face an shook my head. He shrugged and started kissing me again an it took all the effort I had not to roll my eyes. I pulled away an he stopped.

"Look, I didn't want to pressure you if this is what it's about. "

I shook my head. "Can I invite a friend to go to the party, please."

He rolled my eyes. "I thought we were going to chill at the party." I pouted and he nodded. "Yea, ok."

 

When I saw Lindsay in the hall I couldn't wait to tell her. "Linds, hey wait up."

She stopped. "What is it, Victoria?"

"Look I know I sorta ditched you-"

"Sorta?! We barely say hi to each other anymore."

"I know that, so I thought maybe we could be friends again? What'd you say?"

"A sorry isn't going to cut it." She crossed her arms.

"Trust me I know. So remember, when you invited me to a party well i'm returning the favor. This weekend."

She let out a squeal. "Omg, really! Who's rad bash are we going to?"

"One of Nathans friends. I'll text you the details, ok?"

She nodded. "This is going to be so much fun!"