my state of mind

They ask "how are you doing " but really what they mean is "are you over it yet ". Although my lips speak the words "i'm fine " my eyes are speaking a different story ,my heart is singing a different tune ,and my soul is just weeping of misery  yet not one single person notices how much im breaking inside nor how distant I am or my lack of interest in human contact or social wise ? do they even really care is the question I mean do they look hard enough and see my flaws or see the door to my soul is locked tight ? or do they just feel sympathy for the poor depressed girl whos trapped in her own mind ad seems to weak to defeat her own demons ? honestly I ask these questions a lot but never get a straight answer but in the state of mind im in right now I could honestly care less for the rest of the world right now I just want to be alone with myself and my thoughts and the feeling of nothing but sorrow  and numbness.

Reviews

[Chris]

Hello...

Some days are real, real hard, others - not quite as hard. I get too tired ...a lot... and way, way, way too fast. I miss too many and too much. Read too fast and know enough to be dangerous. I don't do pompous well at all, and even preach THAT badly too. But I learned to listen early on because I felt unheard too. Come by and say "hi" if ya want - if only like I just did.

Laters.