I Can Do This

     I don't know if I can get through today no matter how many times I tell myself I'm fine. I know that it's just a lie. No matter how much it hurts to admit it... No matter how much it does... I'm hurting. It's getting harder each day to breath. I can feel the tears start to form in my eyes, and can feel the sick feeling in my stumach. No matter how many times I lie to myself that I'm fine... I'm completly, utterly fine, and over him. No matter how much it hurts in my heart everytime I see him... and her. I swear I'm over him. I'll be okay...I'll be fine. I'll just keep lieing hoping that maybe just like everyone else I'll believe it. I know I'll be able to do this. I can... I suck up the tears that are screaming to fall down, and I walk past them once again. Feeling my heart breaking asking to be ignored, but I can't ingnore the empty horrible feeling you get. It's so hard just to fake a smile let allown laugh, but I want no one to see what is happening inside of me.