BETTER

a poem about a bad relationship

Sorry

that I've blocked your calls

for months on end

but I still listen to the voicemails

that you send.

Sorry

that sometimes I'm mean,

treating you like jewelry

I've used to numb the pain

and all of the grief.

Sorry

that I change my mind

so frequently each day,

never meaning to use you

or pull you every which way.

Sorry

that I still know your birthday,

that my favorite songs became

your favorites too,

and that just won't fade away.

Sorry

that I couldn't be better for you

and that I still can't believe

anyone could ever

be in love with me.

Sorry

everything wasn't better

and I was so naive and blind

to the way we were

always leaving each other behind.

Sorry

that I run when things are good

and stay when things are bad,

I guess I never understood

what we had.

Sorry

that I flinch every time

you lay your eyes on me

because you do it like no one else---

like I'm someone you can please.

Sorry

that I broke your heart,

my ignorance strikes again

because things didn't get better

and you couldn't see the end.

Sorry

that I couldn't love you

or be better for you, baby

but someone will love you,

it just won't be me.

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Bee]

Baby...? You've never called me that before... You were never the problem, and I'm sorry you've put this guilt on yourself.