Float

a poem about depression and being overwhelmed

I'm falling into the deep end,

That dark place that floods me

Over and over till I'm drowning

And I just float, float, float.

I'm overthinking; the thoughts won't stop,

Trapped in the prison of my own head

Crying over the sink every night

Letting tears float, float, float.

I'm in over my head, drowning,

But I'm fine---not struggling, right?

I'm stuck in a bubble I didn't create

So I just float with the crowd, numb inside.

So insecure that it's funny;

So used to feeling this bad,

I think I might be going insane,

As I float, float, float.

Where are all my friends?

Loneliness creeps in again,

The water's turning red---they don't care

If I float or if I fall.

And I fall, fall, fall,

Feeling alive as I fight for my life,

I can't escape from this riptide

So I float, float, float.

Watch me drown in these waves,

Don't know if I can make it back

To the surface, I'm gasping for air

As I float, float, float...

Author's Note

I really like this poem and I would appreciate feedback! :)