Since You've Been Gone

But I don't even see you
Within my sight
I look around, frantically
Again and again, in hope
That you'll step out of the darkness
With glitters in your eyes
And leaving stardust behind
As you walk ahead of me
Holding my hand a bit too tightly
As if never wanting to let go.

But it rains instead
And what remains of me
Is the roaring of this heart
Drenched in pain and agony
I see my pitiful life slipping through
The gaps between my fingers
And as I try to mend myself
I wonder what's louder?
The demons screaming inside me
Or the thunder tearing apart the sky.

Reviews

[Onlyme]

Never let anyone make you feel you need them to love you for you. Love yourself first and foremost and then love someone else on top. Self-love is important and needed. As just someone loving you alone will not work properly.

[Arpita Mondal]

Thank you so much for your kind words Dee.
I've always thought of myself as someone who can't be loved and I felt I didn't deserve it. I've spent a lot of time hating myself for a lot of stupid reasons. And I just hope someday I can realise my own self worth. :)

[Onlyme]

Well I for one can really relate to how you feel. I used to feel the exact same way as you because of my upbringing as a child. And they way people treated me who should have loved me. You have to learn to love yourself. Start of slowly. By liking yourself. And doing things that MAKE YOU HAPPY. NICE THINGS. LIKE YOUR POETRY, READING A BOOK. And work up to loving yourselfs. Like buy a nice dress as a treat for you. Or eating something you like. And it does help honest. Anytime you need a chat. Speak to me. Okay. Hugs. You are a wonderful person with a great big heart. And you deserve to be loved and cared for by yourself and others always. That is true. Dee. And these not kind words these facts and truth. okay.

[Arpita Mondal]

You really are an inspiration Dee. It really helps to know that someone is going through the same problems as you. I was also never loved by people who should have loved me and protected me and that's why I grew up to hate myself. I always blamed myself for everything. And it just got harder as harder with time to appreciate myself for even the little things.

[Onlyme]

Exactly that is was happens sweetheart. They project their bad feelings and intent on to you. as they also hated their selfs. And took it all out on us. When in actually fact. It's not us at all. They where angry and hurt at. It was themselves. We have to break the circle and upset. And stand up for us. And love us for us. And put the past in the past. And over time. You do feel better about YOURSELF and start to like and love you. It's not easy. But baby steps each day. And somedays. You might not feel like being nice at all to you. But a new day each new day. You step forward a little step again. And it eventually gets easier. Honestly. I am being honest with you.