Gone

I was me again
I was happy
I could feel it, I was getting better
I was smiling
I was enjoying myself

Then I wasn't anymore
It was back
It curled down at the bottom of my stomach
It pinched the nerves in my head
My eyes locked in on nothing
My brain went blank

I look up from myself
He's so concerned
I'm ruining him like Its ruining me
He falls apart with me
Slowly
I'm in his hands on his shoulder
Hiding behind my self doubt

Things I used to enjoy I don't
Things I used to say I don't
I used to be sporadic
Energetic
Talkative
Excited
Creative
Smart
Perseverant

Strong

I used to be me

But Im gone now

-A