what have i dun?

i dont understand. 

do you honestly think i would lie?

do you realy think i would tell you "i love you"

and not mean it?

i poured out my sole befor you

in these poems threw my behavior

and you honestly think i lied?!

you always talk about being hurt by those you love

that you will never let down your defenses.

perhaps i should have f*****g listened

shut myself further away

stooped myself before i fell

i have spent sleepless nights on a pillow damp with my tears

thinking of nothing but you

if you were upset or angry i could not sleep

till i knew you were ok

at college.

i try desperately hard just to move my gaze from youre beautiful eyes

why is it everyone there could see how i feel

yet u think it an act

i honestly cannot belave it.

dont get me wrong i know im nowhere near perfect

i can see reasons why you might think that

yes i did refuse to go to youre partys and chill out at youre house

because i cannot stand to see people i care about pumping themselves full of crap

its forighn to me.

i admit i dont know anything about you're drugs so they scare me

but im not useing you

yes i allways ask you to help me do this or that

but thats because i honestly beleave that if i ask anyone 

if they just wont to "hang" or "chill" 

they will say no. they will find some excuse

im sorry if thats the impression i gave but its just not true. 

i f*****g love you 

whether you beleave me or not

and your right 

it hurts

Author's Note

edited on advice of a review and have tried to del any text language i put in there. if i have missed some please tell me. thank you

Reviews

[Manda]

aww this was so sad...but very well written! even though it brought a tear to my eye it was still a wonderful piece! great! hope all goes or is well!

[Taylor H.]

This poem is really good but I feel you need to fix all the text talk...

[Lottie]

This poem is refreshing. I like how you give your perspective and hers :) Another good write, really like it!