wide awake

its strange how old memories hurt u

I try so desperately hard

I wont to seep

I wont to escape to that dream world

to where reality cannot touch me

harm me

break me

its warm here, comfortable

the world has taken its toll

I cannot keep my eyes open

yet I cannot sleep

I cannot escape

I hear a booming drunk voice

shaking threw the house

a voice lost in poison

passing lips drenched

in putrid smelling alcohol

my eyes snap open

my ears desperately search for the terrifying sound

I tense,

move the covers so I may run

reach for my pathetic penknife

unfold the blade and clutch to my only form of protection

images fly threw my head

I stab him

slash him

hold him to the wall and ask him why?

And then smile as I watch him die

but this is reality

my knife is blunt

I am nt as strong

I could nt do it

I am scared

but still I cling to the knife

the voice moves away

down the street

it was not him

he is long gone

miles away yet he can still scare me

slowly I fold the knife away

pull op the covers

with the folded blade in hand

I sleep eyes open tonight

Reviews

[James Paulin]

The poem is full of frightening realities faced by more than a few. I feel the title could be stronger (Insomniac Dream comes to mind) I actually like your odd spelling as it gives the piece an accent. You have a talent for drawing powerful images with your format and verbiage.

[Ama May Cooper]

The fear seems to lundge off the page, as if in readng it your placed before some great danger.
Its always amazed me how the mind creates such images out of near enough nothing, how simple noises are misreadd as past trauma's a great piece well done

[Michael X]

this is gripping, and in subtleness the meaning is heartrbreaking, a victim of an evil, and how memories have the ability to bring the chill back, i find the experience saddening, the poem and expression is excellent.
keep up the great

[Manda]

Yes this is very well written. I like the suspense and the feeling of being frighten by such a human being. The spelling mistakes are actually ok in this piece. Its like as the narrator speaks he stutters upon his words and makes mistakes. I like this very much. I have nights were I cannot sleep for I am afraid of the same thing. I dread those nights wanting to sleep but I am not able. Well Done!!!!!