Devils whispers

me trying to explain my low self opinion

All my life they have been there
over my shoulder round the corner.
Always there
pulling me down
those little voices.
Calling my failings.
My imperfections.
Picking on every little detail till there is nothing left of me but a broken shell

I always heard these competent devils in my ear calling me stupid, ugly, week and pathetic
no matter what I might do
what I say
those voices are always there saying
 you cant be who you are
do what you do
say wont u wont.

Conformity

for the longest time they were my only companions.
Alone but for these massing devils of the tong.
Hearing nothing but those evil voices.
I start to bereave them
I embrace what they say
I become what the call me, make me
give up
surrender
retreat
only able to be me in the darkest relms of my imagination.

Then I hear those foreign voices.
Those of friends
true friends
they say I can
they tell me to be me
that I am a good thing not some weird monstrosity
that I do not need to conform

such sweet voices
but those devels still hold ground.
They still hold the keys to my mind
they do not let me listen
they will not allow me to beleave.

They dont understand.
I am not angry at these devils.
I dont fight them.
I do not deny them
I simply accept them
I accept what they say is true
I merely accept that I am what the devils say

but now im almost free. Im starting to hear those friends
im starting to realise they exist
im only just starting to feel that I can be me no matter what people say.

The devils will never leave me.
There shadow will always haunt my mind
but maybe I can change
maybe I can say
I CAN

Reviews

[Ama May Cooper]

many of us feel these almost broken voices echoing around our heads in a somewhat empt heartless snicker. An unshakable broken ego, that seems dented into us as years go by constantlly hounding and repeate words. And the way simple things can sink into us.
A well written piece projecting the feelings and emmotions with power and depth , imprnting as you noromally do a meaningful echo on the readers mind

[Manda]

great read! well written! enjoyed

[EILEEN McGUINNESS]

I liked this very amusing poem i can also relate to your issues with voices in your head which plague your existence,for my part i have so many thoughts reigning down on me each day that i am suffocating with negative emotion.
Your use of words was very descriptive and articulate,the real devil or demons in our head is the thoughts of others how we perceive others to think of us, if only we could worry about our own shortcomings and what we believe ourselves to be of any worth.
Unfortunatelt society is such a cruel harsh enviroment that there is no place to hide if weakness is discovered,for me the gentil and still life is far more appealing than the urban rat race.

[Sexy P3nguin]

Thank you for entering
A great read
There was a lot of detail and I did feel moved by it. In your description you said "
me trying to explain my low self opinion
"

I like how you called your self opinion a demon. As we all know a demon is supposed to be a creture from hell but in your writing YOU are the demon. Great job

[James Paulin]

I admire the way you simplified such deep introspection. The voices within whisper many thoughts to prod and surpress the way we act. I like the form of the poem and the way it carries the tempo. The thought process is easy to comprehend with excellent verse and line breaks. A very well conceived poem.