what she wonts

me trying to understand what girls wont... a hopeless cause we will all agree

Why is it? No matter how hard you try, no matter what you do or say love just never comes, passes you buy, never gives you that one chance that we all deserve.

 

My friends always seem to say ill find someone eventually. That one day love will come my way. They say I’m an amazing guy. They list all these reason. Say how amazing i am.

 

But I know.

 

So what if I’m amazing. So what if I’m kind so what if people can talk to me. Trust me. So what if I’m this awesome guy that my friends somehow see? It’s not what I see when I look in that devilish mirror. Do my friends just lie? Do my friends just wont me to feel better for that split second I might believe I’m something moor than i am?

 

Or perhaps. Perhaps that’s just not what girls wont perhaps they like all these guys I see, treating girls worse that the s**t on the bottom of there boots. Perhaps they like the heartbreak and betrayal.

 

Hell they say that they always remember the villain before the hero.

 

Perhaps I should change. Perhaps if I won’t to be loved I need to be that villain. I could be, I could be the most hurtful heartbreaker this world has seen. Maybe that would make her smile?

 

But that’s not me. That’s a lie, an act, a character fabricated in the realms of my imagination. And in my imagination he should stay. He is not me and I will not be him.

 

Perhaps I’m just destined to be alone. Perhaps for whatever reason I don’t deserve that chance I desperately won’t, just that one chance.

 

But this changes nothing. Ill still be there. Last on the bench. Always waiting for that slender hand to pull me from my loneliness.

 

Who am I kidding? Who would love me?

 

I’m meant to be alone

Author's Note

this is strait from mind to keyboard and spell checked so dont expect much

Reviews

[Manda]

awww this is so sad =( i hope everything works out. you dont need to be alone. you have me =) i am here when you need someone, like a girl. i can cheer you up. this was a very well written piece. very well expressed. very touching. i hope you feel better =) when you ever need anyone to talk to you have me =) trust me i know what your feeling and whats its like...

[Lottie]

Awww love it! You say things how they are, your to the point and the things you say are a cruel truth of love.

[Ama May Cooper]

Awww this is so sweet.. so tender and so heartfelt.. a truthel thought pattern printed onto the page wth perhaps to little faith in ones own ablites.