My story

My Name is Micky. L. Gear

L for loser, L for Lazy, L for Leroy.

I maybe a gear, but I'm tired of being a tool

This is my story 100% true.

I need to get it off my chest,

I need to vent surly you understand.

every seance I was nine, I live with my uncle,

My fist memory of him was his class ring,

Brass with a emerald gemstone in the center

The shine of green as the emerald caught the light.

as the brass cut crossed my cheek.

His fists breaking jaw.

All because he found my phone.

My lifeline, my hope,

hidden under my bed.

I went to my first day of school in my new town the next day 

My voice in a wire cage. 

They called me different from the bat.

Mettle mouth, the new black kid, the kid no one new but everyone hated.

through the next weeks I could not tell them my story, though I did try. It never got reported by the  teacher, but he did mention it to my uncle. My uncle grabbed my arm when I got inside the house after school that day. The sound of breaking bone filled my ears.

"If you Ever do that again..." he let the threat hang in the air leaving me to crumble to the floor.

In pain, confused.

I did not know what I had done.

I never went back to school. 

My uncle classified me as home schooled

though I did not learn much tell i went back to school. High school.  

But that was years later.

I cant tell anyone about my uncle. 

I don't have any ware different to go

My Mom died, nobody will tell me how

My dad is in prison, nobody will tell me why

 I often wounder if they are related, but I dare not dwell that dark.

some secrets should remain buried, bard from memory

which is fine by me.

But the point is my confessions.

Some ware down the road I met three people.

You know two of them well, or you think you do.

I met Keven digging in a dumpster.

He was actually digging himself out

after getting thrown in.

 

 I met Jeff,

His cloths too big for his 4 foot 6 frame, full of holes 

and  hanging off his skinny body.

His parents had money.

Money for drugs  

Money for alcohol

but none for him.

And finally Hazel

You have never met her

and you never will

she went to went to heaven at the end of a rope.

They showed told me how to release my anger through hate 

I had a lot of anger.

It was the way I knew. 

The only way I knew.

 

Then we broke up and moved away.

we had no way to reach each other.

Then we discovered The WC

we created A profile The Tree Trolling trolls

Wyrn was the first to send us a message.

Welcome

We are all Friends here.

 So we infected his friends list, shouting out our hate

Intending to hurt.

It was not right.

I never said I was proud of what I was.

I am sorry for what I did.

Well you can guess the rest

I found out through my new Friends

Eve

rose 

Emipoemi

Wyrn

Poe

Queene

and others, too many to mention, 

That I could releave  the pain my making others feel right.

So I became the phoenix.

I still live with my uncle. 

I had to write this with one hand because my wrist is currently broken.

I deal with it because I don't have any ware elts  to go.

Online I am invincible

Unbeaten

Challenged by fire and flame.

In real life I am broken

Having now ware to go.

I hope I have found a new home at the doors of the Cafe

 

 

  

  

 

Reviews

[CJ43223]

Mick, I am glad that you had finally turned yourself around. Life is about experiencing and sharing. Now that you gained a new perspective to see the world, use it as you mean it. Share it as you would to us in front of your friends. Talk about it to the people that you look up to. Sometimes fear and loneliness can isolate us in a formidable way. Knowing you can make a good change to the world is the first step of beating out the affliction in you. Don't worry though, the right people will always be beside you no matter what happens.

[The dark Hydra]

Well hello Micky. so this is what you have done with my profile. What a pile of crap. I should have expected this from you

[The Immortal Phoenix]

Keven, you rased the white flag you shouldn't be here

[The dark Hydra]

There are no white flags here. Give me back my profile or else.

[The Immortal Phoenix]

or else what. hm, the trolls are dead go away.

[The dark Hydra]

Or else your going to end up in prison just like your daddy

[The Immortal Phoenix]

Think about this you dont have to do this please

[The dark Hydra]

I bet he took the knife and slashed it acrossed your mothers throat. and threw her in the river to sink

[The Immortal Phoenix]

you know nothing

[The dark Hydra]

down,down,down bubble,bubble, pop

[The dark Hydra]

I bet he loved the feeling of the blade digging into your mothers throat. Or should I call her Janet.

[The Immortal Phoenix]

You have no right to type her name. My mother was a proud woman.

[The dark Hydra]

Give me the pass word and this wont have to happen. as is your daddy's probable being fucked in the a*s as we type. A nice big dick down his hole, his turn to be the b***h now.

[The Immortal Phoenix]

You have no power here. Here I am a goddess, wrapped in the rain bow wings of Isis, with the cunning of Athena and the looks of Aphridity, you cant hurt me here.

[The dark Hydra]

Oh is that so? well your Daddys going to die in prison, Micky.
Shanked in the throat just like Janet. A fitting punishment after he left you with your uncle. Tell me any broken bones lately? are you still hiding in that closet weeping like a baby? Give up the pass word I will wait for you to dicide. I have to go but ill be back

[The Immortal Phoenix]

I am the Phoenix, this is my profile now, go away. I am not a troll anymore. I thought you were my friend.

[The dark Hydra]

I heard Black people like him just just cant help but throw a kid crossed a room. You n*****s are all the same.

[The dark Hydra]

No ones coming to your rescue, Now you know how hazel felt.

[The Immortal Phoenix]

She was your friend too!

[The dark Hydra]

So were you and look how that turned out.

[The Immortal Phoenix]

That was not my fault.

[The dark Hydra]

Was not your fault? She was only nine! You knew her dad fucked her good and hard in the p***y every night. He dressed her in the sluttiest cloths he could so people would stay away from her. You could have prevented it. With friends like you its no wounder she hung her self. "Went to heaven at the end of a rope" please, you make her death seem so poetic and worthless.

[The Immortal Phoenix]

Don't drag Hazel into this.

[The dark Hydra]

Imagine how she felt being alone. Her face turning as blue as her eyes had been as the rope pulled taunt.
She could even scream. Couldnt even yell for help. Not that she would have wanted help. You drove her to that! You could have saved her, but instead you let her hang from the ceiling like a chandelier. Body jerky, those pretty blue eyes glazing over, I'm shore she pissed herself too. You saw it coming. Yet you did nothing.

[The Immortal Phoenix]

Why are you doing this? Your not getting the password. And I will just block you Keven.

[The dark Hydra]

I know I'm not getting the pass word, I dont care about the pass word, Block me and I will just come back and back and Back. If you are the Phoenix I am The black Hydra. your friends made a fool out of me so now you will take the punishment. No one is coming your friends have abandoned you, Maybe you should join hazel, Your uncle must have a rope for you to swing by in his shed

[The Immortal Phoenix]

Your trying to burn me down again. The fire will fail, no matter how hot it burns. I WILL prevail.

[The dark Hydra]

whats wrong? are your fingers starting to shake?

[The Immortal Phoenix]

I am no longer a troll. No longer full of badness. You cant control me. I say leave, you leave.

[The dark Hydra]

Your still that ugly little troll. You cant wash away the darkness just like that. Nor can you with your drugs.

[emipoemi]

better listen, Kevey, for she has had back up all this time, but seeing as she has stood her ground well, there was never need to step in. But you wanna go again? I warn you you'll be outnumbered again in not only numbers but in wit.

[The Immortal Phoenix]

That was three years ago, i am clean now you were not there

[The dark Hydra]

Can you still see your uncles fists in your dreams.
Punch
Crack
Punch
Crack
do you seek pleasure in hearing your own bones break? No amount of make up can mask what you are!

[emipoemi]

no amount of soap can wash you clean of the garbage you play in......

[The dark Hydra]

I am only after Micky today. I intend to break her. Did she tell you of her PTSD. Thats Okay come morning she will see hazels face again in hell. Janets two. That is were all the b*****s like her go. Burn, this time you wont rise .

[Taniska 😊😊]

Hey ! Just leave freind and don't even try to hurt her otherwise I will .........

[emipoemi]

the only one who's gonna burn is you, Kev....she got her backup now.

[Taniska 😊😊]

Sorry one thing l left ' my freind' !!

[The dark Hydra]

Your always going to be a tool, micky.
And a troll.
You cant change that.You say love is stronger then darkness. Was it love that put your father in prison? Does love stop your uncles fists from flying. did love Barry your mom. Did love stop Hazle from swinging? now the darkness has won with your life. It closes around your heart as we speak.

[The Immortal Phoenix]

How can you sleep at night saying those things. I am losing control. Hazel was my friend dont muddle her memory

[Taniska 😊😊]

Hey ! Keven love can change everything it can change a worst life in a best life got it and if she saw the bad days that was not her fault that was the fault of the cycle of time and now she is my freind ,she is the friend of witter's cafe and no one can hurt as I am here got it .

[The dark Hydra]

Please your all puppets

[emipoemi]

you're more a puppet than we are. Shall we call you Bipsy or Mumu?

[The Immortal Phoenix]

No one controls me! I am no puppet to the darkness

[Taniska 😊😊]

What do you mean ?

[The dark Hydra]

Yes you are. Your uncles fists control you. Black and blue dot your body. How many scars do you have?
One on your cheek from when your uncle busted your face open.

[emipoemi]

have you no sympathy, sir?

[The dark Hydra]

One on your wrist. Your failed attempt at suicide. you should have tried harder to push the dull blade deeper into your skin

[emipoemi]

You do know that a man with no heart would feel no love. Did your mama not love you as a child? Is that why you're taking your anger out on people who could have been your friends?

[The dark Hydra]

One on her stomach were you were stabbed by that bloke in the allie. He raped you too, carving a cross into her breast.

[The Immortal Phoenix]

How did you know about that one?

[Taniska 😊😊]

What are you doing you know about her troubles instead of giving her sympathy you are trying hurt her , seriously you are the heartless creature and you have no mercy at all.

[The dark Hydra]

Oh Jeff told me about that one. You know he just used you as a sex toy and tossed you away like a used condom

[emipoemi]

'cause mama must have never loved either of you two clowns.

[The dark Hydra]

How about your crooked middle finger? The one your uncle slammed a window down when you tried to run away. Their is no ware to run. No one wants a N****r child like you. Not even your n****r daddy.

[The Immortal Phoenix]

Both my middle fingers are razed to you, B*****d.

[Taniska 😊😊]

Micky I tell you just block him .

[Taniska 😊😊]

Now he was telling the mistorious things

[emipoemi]

might as well flag him, too.....he's ignoring everything, and only has eyes for you

[The dark Hydra]

Just like Hazle not strong enough to take the blow. You will end up hanging like her.

[The dark Hydra]

I will just come back.

[emipoemi]

.....boy, if this were only the real world, you'd be smashed like a mofo right now.

[Taniska 😊😊]

Micky I tell you he is not a good man because he don't have heart.

[Taniska 😊😊]

Keven you don't know me who am I just stay away from Micky otherwise I will broke your legs and hand and will then handover to you got it .

[The dark Hydra]

The rision phoenix your wings are turning back to black ash. Are you still reading Micky? Or have you pulled that rope from your uncles shed testing it's strangth

[Taniska 😊😊]

You are just mad ,mental and fully animal .

[emipoemi]

ya no match for her resilience, Kev. She got friends, and there's no way we're backing down when she's in need. Friends stick together.....trolls end up alone

[Taniska 😊😊]

You are just pulling her leg now I am warning you stop it now got it and Micky why you are listing to him.

[The dark Hydra]

You forget what she is. She is a troll.

[emipoemi]

Nah, man.....she's reformed, and you could be too. Everyone is entitled to a second chance at life, but the way you're going.....dude....only a matter of time, before you land in the slammer

[Taniska 😊😊]

Yaa I know but she was now she is fully changed person got it .

[The dark Hydra]

Not everyone gets a second chance. Just ask Hazel. Oh wait you cant she is dead.

[Taniska 😊😊]

Because she is realizing her fault ,she is not like you got it and if you will want to change the you will but you just have to keep faith on yourselve .

[Taniska 😊😊]

Why u ar discussing about the bad days it was past and to forgot worst I think it is better.

[The Immortal Phoenix]

I am going to type this vary slowly one word at a time. Get. Off. The. Cafe.

[emipoemi]

What Hazel did was a cause of not having anyone to turn to. You were so busy with your shenanigans, YOU let her die, because you didn't care about anyone except yourself. Leave Phoenix alone! because this café is a community, and you hurt one, then we all come down on you!

[Taniska 😊😊]

Micky pls don't feel sad we are with you.

[The dark Hydra]

I am done here:). I did what I set out to to. And now the Phoenix is broken. The goddess is gone replaced by a wimpy girl. I can break her easier then I could break you guys. I will deal with you guys later

[emipoemi]

I wanna see you try.....

[Taniska 😊😊]

I will see you what your r going to do

[Wyrn Tiger]

those are colors I don't want to see. Whats this about?

[Taniska 😊😊]

Ab risen Phoenix is Micky now she is fully change but that guy Keven he was just pulling her legs by harashing her you tell is this right .

[The Immortal Phoenix]

I wish that were true. I spent over six years trying to forget the stuff he was talking about. Its all true, the finer points any way

[emipoemi]

and it's true that you may never forget it, Mick, but what you can do is not allow it to get to you. You have to have strength in the face of adversity (laugh, even, if you can). For once you have that, you're invincible.

[Taniska 😊😊]

I knew it but you have to think about happiness that u can get here in writer's cafe and by writing good things in your poem got it.

[The Immortal Phoenix]

Thank you. I don't think I cant hold this back any more. Mama I tried.But I just cant. Hazel my darling I will see thous pretty blues soon.

[Taniska 😊😊]

What r you going to do micky

[The dark Hydra]

what do you think she did? I told you exactly like hazel. The f*****g p***y.

[The dark Hydra]

I think hate trumped love in this case. She was bothering me anyways.

[emipoemi]

And you have no shame, buster! Love and forgiveness conquers all, and if you can't understand that then you don't deserve what you have! Shame on you!

[The dark Hydra]

it was going to happen eventually

[emipoemi]

and you thought you were expediting the process? You're a sad sad twisted guy, and you really don't deserve anyone in your life. Can't take out your anger on innocent people. You were not there for Hazel, and you were not there for Mick.....you, sir, are a murderer.

[The dark Hydra]

I am not a murderer they chose that for themselves.

[The dark Hydra]

I gave them a way out. Hazel was suffering, she needed help. Just like Micky needed help, She was living a fantasy life here at the cafe, thinking things in the real world were just going to get better. They were not, so I did the nicest thing I could have done and gave them both away out.

[Taniska 😊😊]

Am now going to scold you in my language I new you can't understood it but I will do it tum ek sadak chap kute ho tere jese logo ki writer's cafe jese ache jagaha me koi bhi place nahi hei you don't know me who am I and don't even try to became over smart got it .

[The dark Hydra]

kaaphee prabhaavee Ms. Taniska. No let me tell you something in my language. no eres mi amigo. eres una perra.

[The dark Hydra]

getting fancy with languages are not going to bring Micky back. Nothing will, she is in a better place now.

[Taniska 😊😊]

Just up you murderer you mad you stupid you metal animal like guy just shut your mouth got it

[The dark Hydra]

I did the right thing. No one was going to help her.

[Taniska 😊😊]

And I also don't want to be your friend got it you NOOOOOOOOB.

[Taniska 😊😊]

Abe chup you killllllllllllllller

[The dark Hydra]

Ditto. Just seeing if you were paying attention. see unlike you I know how to help people who are too weak to help themselves. I helped Hazel. Now I have helped Micky, am I sad that they are gone yes. But a new feeling washes over me now, relief, I feel better knowing her uncle cant hurt her anymore, she wont get bulled, now she is Invincible like she wanted. Nothing can touch her now.

[Taniska 😊😊]

That's not a way of giving someone relief.

[The dark Hydra]

Better then what you were doing for her. Nothing.

[emipoemi]

You do know, if you wanted to help her, the best way wasn't to help her kill herself, but rather defend her FROM her uncle, you idiot. Think about that! You want to be a man, you don't play the bully and kill the victim, you stand up to the bully that's causing her harm. You have no idea what you actually did here.

[emipoemi]

Therefore you're a cold-blooded murderer

[The dark Hydra]

You had no Idea how bad it was. she was not getting help, couldn't get help. I saved her, despite what ever you think. I saved Hazel door. I gave them a door a way out and they took it. I am not a murder for helping people.

[emipoemi]

There were other ways of helping, @$$hole! Love always conquers. Death is never the answer. You could have been a friend to them. If you knew how bad it was, then YOU should have helped them; shown them that people cared; that they had someone to turn to. But you decided to send them off to kill themselves, because you have no heart....or balls to stand up to your friends.

[The dark Hydra]

Does not matter now she is dead. She chose her way out. turns out death is the answer in this case. Her loser friends on the cafe can't even get That I saved her from the hurt.

[emipoemi]

Oh, we're losers, eh? You're the one who can't understand that to save someone from the hurt, you go after the perpetrator, NOT THE VICTIM! There were options, but because you decided to tell to go kill herself, instead of actually helping her out of the problem by going after the one person who's causing all this harm. Ipso facto YOU are a murderer! A cold-hearted murderer! She needed a friend, and you were just a bystander.

[The dark Hydra]

I was her only friend. She had no family to turn to. Jeff turned his back on her. She was living in some fantasy bullshit world. If it wasn't the rope that got her, the alcohol would have.

[emipoemi]

You're still not justifying your actions. If you were her friend, you wouldn't have suggested suicide. You would have grown a pair of balls and snipped her uncle's. Some friend you were to actually be such a wimp to suggest suicide. Even for Hazel. Friends help! Friends are there for each other! Have some compassion and decency! YOU. ARE. A. MURDERER! A cowardly dolt who wouldn't stand up for his friends! So instead he suggests the cowardly road.

[The dark Hydra]

It was kinder then going on living in the hell hole life she was. I'll go now, I have hurt you enough.You seem broken, shattered, just like her, I am sure there is a rope strong enough to hold. If you loved her so much maybe you should join her? you.

[emipoemi]

There you go again.......but I'm not like her. I may be shattered, but I'm strong as an ox when it comes to life. You on the other hand are a sad sad fool, who knows nothing about how to treat people OR how to live life, so ¡jódete!

[Aurafiex]

What a fool you are. I'm a god. How can you kill a god? What a grand and intoxicating innocence. How could you be so naive? There is no escape. No Recall or Intervention can work in this place. Come. Lay down your weapons. It is not too late for my mercy.

[The dark Hydra]

Micky was no god, she was a poor little child. You realy want to go mother f****r. I gave her the choice because she deserved it. why cant you understand that?

[Aurafiex]

It began here. It will end here. Have you any parting words? Or would you prefer to skip the speeches, and get to our business. You are the challenger here, after all. So to you goes the courtesy of the first blow.

[The dark Hydra]

First blow? I have already served the first blow b***h.

[Aurafiex]

Now that you have come to me here, there can be but one result. Many times I have considered offering to share this place with you. I considered offering to accept your oath of service.

[The dark Hydra]

I don't work with any one anymore. People are fragle creachers , they break way too easily.

[Aurafiex]

But I have won this place and power by right of conquest. By right of daring and enterprise. I will not risk it to cunning and deceit. I offer you no deals. If you are my enemy, I cannot trust you. And even if you are not my enemy, I cannot let you live.

[Davidgeo]

You're both f*g f*****g retard b*****s. But only one of you should be an hero... micky mcfagbitch or down syndrome phoenix or whatever d****e name you go by… do the right thing. Just do it...

[MidnightKingdom]

Oh my god... What it this?

[The dark Hydra]

Retribution and reflection, it's nice to see old scars

[LazerRays]

Glad I could help you see the light micky, we're all broken and we all have a story. I figured you had one too. I'm glad I got to hear it. I'm here to catch ya if you ever fall! Just remember that ;)
-ya Kung Fu Panda friend, Poe
:P

[The Immortal Phoenix]

you make me smile every time your friend Micky mouse

[LazerRays]

glad to be of service ;)

[The Immortal Phoenix]

Poe if your there I need help.

[LazerRays]

am here

[Arriam]

I had no idea. If you ever need anyone to talk to, just let me know. You'll always have a place here, a place to be an invincible goddess, a poet, a good person. It's nice to know you for who you are.
Arriam

[The Immortal Phoenix]

I have been told opening up is the only way to over come the darkness

[Arriam]

It is, and sometimes it's painful but in the long term things get much better

[Taniska 😊€..]

Hello ! Micky I feel your emotion , I had also got trolled by your friends ,I had also scolded them but somewhere in the corner of my heart I was felt that something was done wrong with you in your past because of what you had became so hard and rough .but I think you had also done wrong by trolling other which is not a good way of realising anger by hurting others . I agree that you had suffered a lot in your past but hurting others is not a good way if you want to get justice then fight against the ones who had hurt you without hurting the innocent got it .And if you want to release anger then realise it by writing stories and poems okk . (Smiles) and try to be happy okk 😇😊😊.

[Taniska 😊😊]

And try to help the people who are suffering by this trolling got it and if you ever need help fro me then you are always welcome okk . 😊😊

[The Immortal Phoenix]

Here I feel invincible, like a goddess. hate is a good vent but the WC has taught me that love is a better one. I may not be a goddess in real life but this is close enough for me