Things I hide

I have scars on my arms ,legs and heart
If you look at me you see how much fight ive already used
Every thing left in me is broken and bruised
Thats not even the sad part

Ive put myself in so many bad situations already
Left myself more broken everyday
I let myself lose my way
Im standing on my own two feet but im barely steady

My heart jumps and leaps constanly
The sacrifices, the danger,theres no thrill
Im not taking steps,just standing still
I just keep turning and turning...theres no point to me

Two steps forward one step back
Nothing to keep me going for tomorrow
Selfpitty and sorrow,where is the love u let me borrow
Ive lost so much of myself,everthing u mention i lack....

So slit my wrists
Beat me blood and bruised
Im now the used
As i lay and cringe my fists
I lose track of the days
I lose track of the date,of the time
I lie to often and say im fine
There is no black and white to my world,just greys

I watch time fade
I over work and burn myself out
So that my mind has no time to ponder or dought

The time i have left i spend with a blade
I just watch it drip from my arm
I watch me coz damage,harm
People think i have life made

At night i dnt sleep
The monsters in my head
The voices wish me dead
All over me the darkness will creep

As i lay there
My soul faids bit by bit
I could end all this pain with just one slit,
To my throat,as i lay bare

So cold on the inside
Wathing time slip by
Pushing the tears down,i dnt wna cry
Tomorrow these are things ill hide

Reviews

[914]

YES,DEPRESSION I KNOW MY INNER SELF WELL. WOW LOVE THIS I DEAL WITH RESIDENTS OFTEN LIKE THIS AND UNDERSTAND FULLY.BRAVO

[wordman]

a sad place to be girl,loved the write,describes depression to the tee
you make your own life! so get started turning things around..

[micky]

Depression is my thing wordman...lol..thank you for the review i really appreciate it my dear friend...

[wordman]

sunshine and walking outside will help