R.I.P

Tomorrow will be long

Tomorrow there will be no getting out of bed

3 years you'll be dead

Mother still pretends there's nothing wrong

since you left I have an ongoing relationship... or so

With  fear and depression

These are things mother doesn't like to mention

I'm left with the questions of  "why'd you have to go?"

You had a choice. ..you could of stayed

I was there for you...

Tell me what to do!

So the blaming game is what I played

 

Mother never understood you and I

I never understand when you said

That soon to you'll be dead

You said I should not cry

I feel anger and hate

You chose a rope

Maybe that was your way to cope

So now I contemplate

The choice you made

Brace for impact. ..you use to be my brace

I know you were in  a dark place

But so am I so I turn to a blade

The day you died

I lost the feeling of being alive

I lost the ability to strive

You said "I'm fine" you lied

You said never give up...what did you do?

You were my friend.my brother

Your room is still locked...It taunts mother

I never understood what you went through

I never understood. ..but I'm still here

I know you were scared...so you opted out..

Now I don't have much to say or shout

I wonder was it fear

Reviews

[Outcast]

I know exactly how this feels. Thank you so much for putting it into words.

[micky]

Thank you very much for the understanding :)

[marcus]

This one haunts me, I keep coming back to it.

[micky]

I know Marcus it's okay ...hugs

[ANTO]

Fear and depression rushed into fill the vacuum left by his leaving Micky - nature abhors a vacuum but it doesnt get to decide what fills those gaps - we do.
Your love is at conflict with the lack of answers and the space is therefore filled in the time being by darkness.
One day you'll be able to fill it with only love and it may well feel that he is by your side again.
God Bless.

[micky]

Thank you for your kind words

[Colton Warr]

Micky, I first just want to start out by saying that I am truly sorry for your loss. The heart wrenching pain and confusion you are feeling, I can't even begin to imagine. I pray that you continue to find strength and hope. Keep your head held high even when it feels heavy. If you ever need to talk, message me.

As to regards of the poem itself, I loved it. I thought you did a marvelous job using words here to describe your pain and confusion and how deep they both strike you. I could feel your sorrow. I loved the piece top to bottom. I love that you wrote all of this out. That's one of the best things we as writers can do in times like this, we release what is locked up within us through our words. A truly brave piece here. Thank you so much for sharing this and giving me a chance to read it. Looking forward to reading more from you, Micky. Keep your head up and keep writing!

[micky]

Wow than you Colton for the support and amazing review ....ur kind words mean so much hugs

[AaronFreitas]

What a deep sad write micky. Nothing hurts worse than losing someone we love. It is hard to deal with, hard to talk about and definitely hard to express what we are feeling. Don't give up hope... you wont forget the pain and time wont heal the wound but with time you'll learn how to cope with it better and you have started to do that by writing out what you feel. Strong feelings you penned. Good write micky you know you have a friend here :)

[micky]

wow thank you Aaron your so kind and sweet... hugs

[Saddam]

A sad tale of own. But relate for everyone.
Great one friend sad but expressive.

[micky]

Thank you for your kind words :)

[John Alexander McFadyen]

A really sad tale Micky. You are brave to explore it and write it. Life is full of ups and downs and sometimes it is small pleasures that matter. You obviously loved your brother, so let that love live on in you and in you having a good life.

One typo:
'You had a choice. ..you could have stayed'

[micky]

Oh thank you for your kind words :) I really appreciate it

[Rajat malik]

I feel sorry for that.....

[micky]

Thank you :)