INVISIBLE

IM TIRED OF BEING TOLD WHAT I AM

IM TIRED OF BEING WHAT IM NOT

IM TIRED OF BEING CRITIZIED BY HYPOCRITS

IM TIRED OF FIGHTING

 

IM TIRED OF YELLING

IM TIRED OF CRYING

IM TIRED OF HURTING

 

I WISH I COULD TAKE ALL THE PAIN AWAY

 

AND TODAY FOR SOME ODD REASON

I FELT LIKE DYING MY HAIR BLACK

STRAIGHTNING IT

MAKING SURE IT COVER ONE OF MY EYES

AND DRESSING IN BLACK

ALL BLACK

 

BECAUSE TODAY

BECAUSE OF YOU

MY SOUL FELT BLACK

IT FELT LIKE MY HEART DIED

AND I CHANGED INSIDE

AND  MAYBE TODAY WHEN YOU COME HOME

I WONT KISS YOU OR HUG YOU

AND AT NIGHT WHEN YOU GO TO SLEEP I WONT LET YOU HUG ME

AND MAYBE THIS WILL BE THE BEGINIING OF OUR END

 

BECAUSE I'M HURTING LIKE I'VE NEVER HURT BEFORE

AND THE PAIN I FEEL IS CONSUMING ME AT THIS VERY MOMENT

AND MY HANDS ARE SHAKING

AND I DONT THINK IT BECAUSE IM NERVOUS

 

AND SOMEHOW I CANT...

JUST TURN BLACK SO YOU CANT SEE ME

 

MAYBE IT WOULD BE BETTER TO JUST BECOME INVISIBLE

Author's Note

IT MIGHT SUCK BUT I HAD TO GET IT OFF MY CHEST IM GOING THROUGH ALOT OF CRAP RIGHT NOW

Reviews

[Antony]

Your words are straight forward and tell me of a helpless situation, a death of the heart or the soul and so the black comes into the picture, the color of nothing, or the color of eternity. I wear black all the time, because my heart is empty more then it is full and my soul is dark at times, from bitterness, so I know what you feel, very well expressed.
Tony

[Coyote Poetry]

I was lucky. I didn't give a damn about no-one opinion when I was young and when I'm old. I would tell someone who try to change me. It my decision. Allow me to learn. A excellent poem. Anger and disappointment in your words. Sometime we must smile and shake our heads in agreement.
Coyote

[The High Poet]

By writing it down, you get it out. Most of my poems come from anger and dark parts of my soul. Writing about them is better than any shrink(in my humble opinion). I enjoyed reading this piece and could relate to a lot of what you were saying.

Thanks for Sharing
The High Poet

[Carl Fraser]

Just got back on this site after some time and the title caught my eye since I wrote one here by the same title some time ago and I really like what you have here for it is filled with brutal honesty and emotion, and no it definitely does not suck. Very nicely done..................Blessings, Carl

[Katherine Wyatt]

Wow, I know this place..I tried to go invisible once..This is really well expressed..Hang in there..Time is a filter..
Hugs

[emmajoy]

(((((((((((((((YOU))))))))))))))) < think you need a hug.

Your words are coupled with so much sadness and frustration, they jump from the screen like darts. It's tragic but fine, fine writing. The upper case letters - the printing, really stresses how you feel, the power of your emotions.

So hope you feel better after expressing yourself like this. Writing, talking it out, screaming, whatever, helps drain the anger and hurt. Try to smile when you can, it could help. Take care.

[Suki]

bro �que te pasa? and you say que i dont tell you things anymore!

[Forbidden love]

dang gurl..this poem is just..
there are no words to describe the deepness of it..

[Aeon Starr]

ay zuri!
que te esta pasando?
y no me digas que fue algo que tu inventaste like a story or something!
porque tu misma dijistes que era algo que tenias que sacarte!
bro,calmate and think about the things que estas diciendo que tu estas casada!
fijate que te lo estoy diciendo en espanol para que la mayoria de las personas no entiendn!
bueno que todo te valla bien!
mucho carino

[Omar]

wish you luck and hope things get better for you :)