Me

Everything you need to know and everything you need to absorb to open your eyes and finally see.

I’m done talking about me.

No one sees what I see.

The cold gloomy days,

Looking out at the happy trees.

Envying their joy from just peace and tranquility.

 

Wishing people could see through my eyes

Rather than trying to act sorry and lie.

 

Look how I’m slowly giving up on myself.

Instead of bettering, I’m killing myself.

Losing massive weight, include my puffy eyes, my body compels.  

Everyone around me can’t get me up, now it’s about me, no one else.

Trying to tell me everything is okay, being selfish and thinking for themselves.

I fell.

Michelle.

 How can you do this to yourself?

I’m paying all my karma now, and yes I’m overwhelmed.

 Thinking I can change people, trying to change someone else.

While I’m broken inside myself, with no one to help.

Some people say sadness and depression come from the past but I don’t agree.

My darkness doesn’t come from the past; it comes from the people around me.

Try killing yourself and watch how people will run to you with sympathy.

They’ll bring you flowers while you’re on the death bed, then send to receive psychology.

Psychologists will prescribe the harmful pills, the irony. 

Just to put my mind to sleep instead of trying to get to know the better me.

The better me is capable of anything.

Best believe I’ll have everything on the palm of my hands, how it was meant to be.

Got a little lost on the way, I agree.

Wrong people lead you to the wrong path I see.

But everything goes back to how it’s actually meant to be.

Me, I want to make it far, trynna be highkey.

Im trynna see the deepest forests and touch the highest seas.

Trynna drink ice tea and enjoy the seas while being with my seeds, being care free.

Trynna travel to big places,trynna get my degree.

 Trynna eat from a pure fig tree, not some produced chemical tree that will bring a disease. 

I’ve been away from church for so long, this can’t be.

I used to be a child of God, church is the key.

Religion is so mean, they judge you for anything.

That’s why I learned to be understanding and connect with others spiritually.

Nothing makes sense now but I know someone’s out there looking over me.

Guide me with your love Lord, don’t let the demons take over me. 

Reviews

[Monica Garcia]

Magical indeed. Beautifully written and such an honest elegant piece. Thank you for sharing!

[Michelle May]

thank you, much love!