Doubting DestinyA Poem by Michelle GentAh ha moments and intuition, spirit's guiding us.
Doubting Destiny-
I couldn't have been any older than thirteen or fourteen at the time when I walked across your backyard and opened the gate Closing it behind me, walking onto the dock watching cousin Doug As he scrubbed Uncle Charlies boat The radio was playing and the song Dream Weaver came on the radio I remember commenting how I loved the song I stopped momentarily to look at the letter's spelled out on the back of the boat The Lovely M. named after you Aunt Marie, It was at that instant I had a feeling A feeling that stopped me in my tracks and as clear as day I could see two names Conjoined in my head and they meant something, but what? It really troubled me What and why and whom was trying to tell me something? It was such a strong feeling and so unnerving, but what did it mean? This ah ha moment this epiphany that was strong enough to stop me in my tracks With the conjoined names CharlieMarie. I kept repeating it to myself trying to decode the mystery I heard both names my whole life, separately but not conjoined. Why now did it hold significance? I ran to you Aunt Marie hoping you could uncover the mystery and help me figure it out. Staring you in the eye's repeatedly asking you the same question. One to which you had no answer Irritated, freaked out and confused herself she said, "Oh don't bother me with this nonsense!" It wasn't until now 24 years later that the mystery revealed itself to me in the form of a pregnancy Nine months in fact with a two page list, trying to put 2 names that sounded good together And when I finally did and realized the significance my hair stood on end and chills ran up and down my spine Charlotte Marie, nickname Charlee. hense: CharlieMarie ring a bell? Throughout my pregnancy there seemed to be a bread crumb trail left for me to follow Again a mystery I knew who, but I didn't know why and frankly I was too scared to think about at the time - The doctor telling me if you believe in the old wives tale adage *150 bpm falls under the range of girl I wasn't convinced, I was having a boy who looked like my husband I had a dream to that effect - I got in my car right after this doctor's revelation and turned on the radio The song that came on the radio was "My Girl" - Months later I was window shopping to kill some time before going to work Looking through a bric-a-brac store when out of the corner of my eye I spotted christening gowns I had no idea why they were being sold in this type of store and really wasn't in the market for one right now But they were so charming and lovely I just had to thumb through - Then one in particular caught my eye so I looked inside curious to see how much it was Upon reading the tag inside the name of the gown was: Charlotte - About a month after that incident my husband and myself were invited to a Chinese auction charity event For my nieces school and though I had put many tickets in various envelopes. For numerous prizes The prize that I had won was for a little girls baby basket In retrospect after my daughter was born the signs were all to clear Though at the time it was to frightening to admit It was you Aunt Marie and Uncle Charlie guiding me every step of the way Letting me know yeah, everything's going to be O.K. © 2015 Michelle GentAuthor's Note
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Added on February 13, 2015 Last Updated on February 13, 2015 Tags: please ignore spelling and gramm, on purpose Author
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