Unanswered Questions

this poem revolves around a toxic relationship, where the girls questions are meant to enhance her internal troubles during as well as after the breakup

Unanswered Questions

a poem by Michelle Mejía

Why?

Why did you think it was humane

to violently snatch a heart 

that pumped life through my veins

just like your prey? 

Why, that’s all I can ask myself when 

my mouth has been taught to remain shut, sealed 

since all you could ever think of was defending yourself, 

protecting your own portrait to the world, that’s all that mattered.

Your blaring voice from the distance 

spoke violent, vicious, remorseless

words that came back and forth like ragged currents 

of thoughts flowing, trapped inside my mind.

Your words, filled with 

anger, rage, irritation, exasperation

crawling through my brain,

quickly decaying my comprehension of what love stands for..

Love? 

Love, yes, I’m terrified, frightened even petrified by the idea.

You’ve implanted love as rotten, horrid. 

No, not surrounded by kindness, warmth, respect 

but by manipulation, possession. 

Love, your love taught me to allow my mind 

to believe my doing was mistaken, created chaos,

me equals self-destruction.  

But why?

Why, that’s all people ask

Why did you stay? Why did you let him? Why didn't you end it?

They never see through the mask, no glimpse into

my mind flooded by the toxic thoughts you’ve 

buried, eyes reflecting what I could never say, 

lips coiled to fake satisfaction.

Was it really this fun when you attacked vigorously?

Sucked every spark of hope left inside me, 

leaving nothing but dark shadows, 

poisoning my body and soul from believing being 

worthy of love?

Unanswered questions, that’s all you left me with. 

But now, now I know me trying to comprehend what we had is futile 

as our so called love was never missing a half but a whole. 

Author's Note

I don't know whether to call this poetry or not. it's very messy, which was the point as it's supposed to mimic how traumatized the females mind is after have experienced such toxic relationship.