because I do

you looked at me and said, "Why?"

No context and none needed. I knew what you meant. I couldn't begin to answer that. So many things came to my head that the only words I could spit out were, "because I do." If I could formulate my thoughts into sentences I would have said:

because you dance in your underwear in the kitchen while making pancakes

because when you laugh really hard your glasses fall off

because you kiss me every time you get up to pee even though you'll be back in two minutes

because I am terrified that one day you'll stop loving me but everyday you tell me you do just so I don't forget

because you make dad jokes at the worst times possible

because you sleep naked except for your socks and you say it's so your cold feet don't touch mine but I really think you've been doing it since you were a kid

because your laugh sounds like a six year old girls giggle

because I feel both safe and vulnerable with you and that's the scariest feeling I could have but I'd be lost if I stopped

because you laugh at me when I talk about aliens but I totally know you believe in them too

You asked me "Why?" and I'm sorry for my answer, I should have said all of those things before you were gone but I thought that if I started, I would have never stopped. And I never will.

Author's Note

let me know what ya think :)