......the more knowledge I acquire, the more papers books and articles I read I struggle with the notion that I may never be able to love a man. Not that I'm implying the alternative, yet I realize I can not predict the future. This thought haunts me, I have ruled out some love that is not some shade of brown, yellow, or red but am unsure of this feeling that the male species is inadequate. While I don't doubt a man could love me completely I feel that love may not be able to be returned in the same amount. And say I do find a man who treats, respects and loves me in every sense that I could have ever imagined, will that same man even tho he may never display it, believe not that man is better, but are women truly equal.
And while he will convincingly claim this outward it is that deep seed that he may carry that leads me to question: is inherent maleness something that can be overcome?
And while the only way to battle this is to educate men of sexism, will they use that information to grow and change or to revel in their maleness and secretly be pleases at the reaffirming of male dominance, even when mentioned in connection of its disease ways.
So I fear my thoughts may be beyond my time. it is not of the same pleasure or cosmic aligning to take a man with that seed and remove it as it is to find a man who is seedless.