shhh

i look in the mirror

what can i see

a teenage girl lost in a dream

she plays through scenarios in her head

to prepare for a conversation she always dreads

she walks up to a person and opens her mouth

then all of a sudden she shuts down

they say hello

she looks to the ground

feeling so stupid

she runs for the door

embarrassed and confused

her stomach in not's

she goes home frustrated once more

then its time for bed

she sinks in the covers

tomorrow awaits

another conversation to discover how can she escape 

she avoids all contact 

how could she not

people are scary 

more so then she thought

he mind goes blank

preparing its self

tomorrow will be better

she whispers to her self

this thing she dose

is an awful thing

but she doesn't mean it 

she cant help how she is

this thing pulling her down is called anxiety with a twist of ptsd

she is not stupid

she is not rude

she is in survival mode when she first sees you