tiered

i wanted to stay in the dark

i did not want my heart to beat for another person

i didn't want a man

but yet i kept searching

it wasn't my fault

i couldn't stop

my heart was looking

but my mind was trying to forget

all who came before

back away

i don't want you

i don't wanna feel the fear that comes with pain and love

i hurt before

but he saved me

once more i have fallen in love

but with a trick up my sleeve

and a plan to escape

i know i will be gone before the first date

i told him im scared 

he said he would wait

so here i am

letting him play

they never seem to get it

but ill give him a try

soon he will see

i have no soul

only darkness

then the doors will be closed

and him outside

no one can love me

i am a free spirit

before he knows it

ill be deleterious

love is a lie

i am hiding

i don't wanna be found

i wanna fall back to the dark whole from whence i came