forgiven

Dear Chris,

I forgive you for every thing, it has been ten long years since you hurt me, i am a grown women now and my parent are worried that i am taking this to lightly, so i am composing this letter to show that i am letting go of the the past and moving on but i will always remember what you did to me, i have spent most of my nights with nightmares of when you would throw me against the basement wall

I knew and you did to that my screams and efforts were useless the more i struggle the harder you pushed, i would wake up with sweat dripping from my brow and i could almost feel you standing behind me, i never felt safe in my own home i would lock the doors and leave the lights on, no one truly understands what i am going through........

she looks down at her paper and wonders what she was doing writing to the man who felt no sympathy towards her, but she felt the need to explain to him what it was like and how much it impacted her and her loved ones being only twelve and missing for two long years with a strange old man who would beat her if she walked wrong, it made her sick to her stomach thinking of all the things he did and said. 

It isn't fair she was so innocent and he took it with the use of his hands and his dick it hurt so bad and some times he would laugh in her face if she screamed but most of the time he would go faster and  harder then raised his right hand to smack her, she learned quickly to hide the tears and save them for night time when she couldn't dream only lie awake with the fear of tomorrow.