After All

After all this time, my heart clenched ever so tightly
Piece by piece, I have not ceased to shatter
Holding on when I desperately need to let go
Lying to myself in hopes of change

Pathetic, this denial is ever on going
As I lose my sense of reality
Distancing from all, I continue to burn every bridge
Unwilling to press forth

Have I become undone?
As I look for any ledge to grasp
With each breath, I edge closer towards an end
Permanence a false term

Stripped of my happiness
Left to suffer this nothingness
Alone and captive to the void, I confess
I have been unable to rest

Conflicted as how to move on
Swaying between anger and regret
I still cannot comprehend the untimely betrayal
Which has left me in purgatory

Remember all the time we spent?
Those memories we made?
I still cannot forget them
Although I try as best I can

Sacrifices were made constantly
I became the scape goat
Bearing the hatred and punishment
Failing to overcome those burdens

Why did we depart?
The hurt is unyielding
Why must I wear this mask again?
Despairing over a bleak future

Reviews

[hdean]

Beautifully written! You knitted an immense amount of emotion into your words, and I could relate to your message.

[mhylands]

Thank you! I'm glad I could put down words that are actually relatable.