SMXII - VI

SMXII covers a series of writings I did during my drunken summer of 2012. Often, they were related to love, which is a difficult subject for me. When drunk, I wrote in my little black journal.

Looking onwards to a torch ablaze

Weakened knees, I tremble at your gaze

That shining smile and that emboldening laugh

Keep sacred all that was meant to be a secret

Hold me and don’t look back

If for a moment, I lose myself

Don’t you ever regret it

Because I never will

Unsure of myself, I question everything

What purpose do I serve to be this way

Asking myself, do I mean anything

To you, I dedicate all I have to say

Amused, I ponder

What was I thinking

To script such vernacular

As I continue drinking

These messed up emotions

That constantly are breaking

Me apart, with no sense of remorse

I will keep saying

Everything and nothing

To be the one

To perpetuate something

Amounting to nothing

Compounding to nothing

This heated intake

Leaves only ashes

This burning desire

Leaves only ashes

To be honest, I am lost

Without you, it will cost

My life, my dreams,

My hopes, my pride

I will be left to stand

On this rubble alone