I F*****g Hate You

** TRIGGER WARNING: SEXUAL ASSAULT **

Is this how it was supposed to be?

You happy, and me here?

Why do you get away harm free

When you f*****g raped me?

You think you’re all high and mighty

But you’re a manipulative little b***h!

You can’t take fault for the wrongs YOU DID

And now I’m here, defeated.

You deserve to die alone

And to never be happy again

Because you deserve to feel what you did to me

To feel death inside your soul

I don’t know how to deal with this pain

And it’s just getting harder and harder

You ruined my life and killed me inside

Probably just for a laugh

Does it make you happy to know

You killed an innocent soul?

Does it give you that control?

God I f*****g hate you

And I wish you would f*****g die!

All these nights I’ve stayed up sobbing 

Are NOT caused by lies. 

You raped me, and you know you did

But that doesn’t matter to you

What matters is you get what YOU want

No matter who it hurts.

I can’t believe you did this to me

But really, I should have known

That you’re nothing more than dirt on the ground

But I was a fool, and I trusted you.

You make me question everything I do

Do I just deal with this nonstop pain?

I don’t really have much of a choice

But to live with this everlasting shame.

Reviews

[Donna]

If this is true, I am so sorry that you had to experience that. It does help to get your anger out by writing. Nicely written!

[lethargicbri]

Very raw, yet beautiful. Being in a similar situation I found this very comforting, as if you took the very words you spoke (or wrote, rather) from my lips.

[SuicidePact.]

So much raw emotion here. I love it.

[.Lost Soul.]

Thank you very much :)