Revelation

I absorb my self complication as my conscience loves to coil.

My brain rejects simplicity making emotions anything but loyal;

when you can't connect the dots of your feelings you're forced to accept turmoil.

The chaotic trot of one who's distraught can easily be thought as infertile soil causing hope of growth to rot regardless of how intensely success is sought.

A battle with yourself is never worth fought, 

I learned the hard way; a lesson self taught.

I struggled many times, trial and error was a lot.

I started to think forcing myself against my desires was a solution;

but once I faced the consequences, like many other things I realized it's not.

I now absorb gained knowledge, it repels outdated mistakes.

Learned experience is further sustained than college, it expels drought of satisfaction and the hatred that intakes.

I now soak in stability; it invites balance as good sensation awakes.

I no longer choke on my past mental unrest's agility; 

so uplifting this isn't imitation, for mine and so many others' sake.

A sense of resolution as I prove I'm not doomed to a mindset that to negativity it compulsively rakes.

It's as if I've experienced evolution as I progressively move;

rather than loomed to a habit resulting in debilitating self repulsion and self esteem diminishing as it cakes.

I'm so incredibly filled with joy that I could finally transform,

I now appreciate nearly everything to who I am that does adorn.

It fills me with indiscriminate infinite hope that what I now more than accept is what previously I so passionately against had sworn.

The unexplainable reward this change has brought makes me perceive how I used to think as so self destructive and illogically forlorn.

One of the most significant and helpful realizations in my life is that if you find yourself in a trap of sadness from which you cannot escape;

what guarantees the duration is to accept and helplessly mourn.

Our capability to help ourselves is never beyond us;

proof of this is humankind still survives,

and once you fully realize what your capable of you must use all your potential to resist what before held you back.

For no matter how much a part of you it feels;

it's just one of life's leeches that to live must be torn.

You must fight with the passion of a life and death situation;

because if a leech afflicts you only one of you can survive.

Once you're free of all that was restricting who you are and holding you back you will experience a sense of true happiness, clarity, and the feeling of being cleansed and thoroughly renewed;

something best described as starting again,

the miracle of being once again born.