Heavy

Read my vomit.

I feel sad

I feel bad

I don’t care

No one cares

But they all follow

My eyes

My clothes

My tongue

My bones

My

I

Heavy

Cannot

Speak of

Nothing

No one

But

Heavy

No one

Wants

I don’t want

But

It is

Everywhere

In every

Living

Inch

Of

Dust

I cannot

Excite 

But

No one

Minds

 They all follow

Smiling eyes

Biting sounds

No one saves

Invisible

Death

Better is

Someone else

They all follow

I want to

But no one

Speaks of

Nothing

Funny

No one

Likes

The mute

Does not

Excite

I do

Nothing

But wait

For days

To pass

Until they

Come and

Make

Everything

Float.

I

Hesitate

To speak

Embarrassing

Words.

I

Break

Crumble

On sanitary

Seats

Broke

When I just

Got on

My first feet

Then you

Showed me

I was no good

Then they

Turned me

Into

Warm Rivers

And volcanoes

Bleeding

But I was never

Fixed.

I am dry

Do not excite

Do not speak

To you

For you

But I cry

Because

You

Are happy

And I

Am heavy

And I

Like you

But my heart

Is dry

So it

Means

Nothing.

I am not

A warm home

I am not

A songbird

I do not

Make you fly

I make you

Drown bored

I

Am

Heavy

.