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things weren't meant to end up like this

Everything that I want to be

everything that I once was

everything that I am

now revolves around you

God, i hope you're ready for 

the responsibility,

to mend 

my broken heart

I can't play games anymore

either you're in it or you're not

swing your hardest,

but at least follow through

because nothing that you could do to me

would hurt me more

than loving me and leaving me 

like the one before

I'm trusting you with confidential emotions

that nobody else knows I have 

that are just as unstable as the stars in the sky

that are in need of repair

boy, you have access to me

you decide how this goes

you could take it all and run

and I would just be grateful to have you in the throes

I don't let myself become vulnerable

that's why they call me the ice queen

and boys like you would have 

made me cringe on the scene

we accept the love we think we deserve

and this i've known to be true

but I'm hoping that this time

I'm enough to maybe just satisfy you.