the monster

 i don't know where my mind has been lately. i feel empty, like an empty canvas an open book full of reversed questions and answers that don't match. each breath i breathe I'm exhaling the last humanity i have left of me. This monster has crawled out from under my bed and into my mind. Taking over my words, my sight and everything i am. This monster has left scars on my arm which i can not erase but oh how it feels so amazing. A pain that inflicts but a pain that heals. Such a state of mind you must be in to destroy what destroys you. "deeper", "just one more" ha, such a world we live in. 

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Many monsters we must fight in daily life.
"A pain that inflicts but a pain that heals. Such a state of mind you must be in to destroy what destroys you. "deeper", "just one more" ha, such a world we live in. "
Inner demons must be stopped. They blind our goals and dreams. Thank you for sharing the powerful story.
Coyote

[SuspectGray]

I never understood the lure of cutting but I am beginning to. A pain that inflicts but a pain that heals. please....not too deep.

[Dawn]

Omg, this is so close to what I'm going through with my personality disorder, it's like you wrote it about me.
For a long time I denied that there was anything wrong with me. But now I've accepted it. And medication doesn't help, it just makes me numb and not care. But then, like you said, that monster comes out from under the bed into my mind, and I start either cutting myself or other inappropriate and hurtful things. I don't know where my mind has been lately....you said it so well. I hope so much to find someone who understands because no one ever has.
Whatever your situation is, god bless you and please know I think you are wonderful, hon.