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Sunday, July 2. 2017

Have you ever cried from the insecurity about being fat? I really hope not, cause it f*****g sucks. I mean, I guess I'm not that fat but I still am bulging in places that shouldn't be... Under the bra, the backside by my armpits, the space above my waist, it all seems to happen in that mid section. And gosh, it's bikini season! Where's my bikini body?

My boyfriend has gotten a lot more fit since we first started dating. I could say that I've reversed in my fitness. Today we had a conversation about how I should go to the gym with him and why I don't have any motivation to work out, and I guess it was his tone or the way he said it but I interpreted it as: "He is calling me fat". And you can see where that lead to. So I cried, big f*****g whoop. Why cant everyone be a little fat? At least he is the nicest boyfriend to reassure me against my insecurity and tell me that was not his intention when he mentioned the gym, but it's still my problem and in reality I should probably hit the gym.