I’m Scared

I’ve been scared
of being in love
being in love
to have my heart broken
to have my heart broken
from being in love,
to be in love again,
I’m scared

Im scared
But this ‘scared’
isn’t the same as before...
It’s the kind of scared
that I’m not good enough
the kind
I’m not experienced enough
Not smart
Not woman
Not prepared enough

Scared...

Yet ‘God didn’t give a spirit of fear, but of power
of love
and a sound mind

Power.
Love.
Sound Mind.

Three words I don’t normally recite.. Three words
much more different
than the
3 worded romance lines:
-i love you-
Scared.Fear. Love.
Power Love Sound Mind

Somehow there it still lingers
In all three examples
In all three kinds

Love.
repeated three times.
So,
maybe I’m still scared...
still scared to love
still scared of heartbreak
Scared

yet,
stepping forward
another time

Reviews

[Mr. D]

It sucks having your heart broken. If you're like me, you've cut off all emotional ties with anyone and everyone. But that might not be something you can do. I've found that animals make better company than people.

As for loving again, I'm not sure what to tell you on that one. As you can see from my picture on here, I have my heart wrapped in barbed wire metaphorically. Keeps people out and keeps me safe. People say it's a lonely life. Maybe it is, but it's also a safe one.

But if you sit and think about it, none of us really know what true love is. Only the finite, flawed version of it we THINK we know but fail to understand time and time again. I don't believe it's possible TO know true love in this world. Struggling all your life, fighting and arguing with people, and dealing with other people's bullshit. Is THIS what people call love? If it is, I want no part of it. But maybe you shouldn't be like me.

But I've had my heart broken and I REFUSE to have it broken again. That's why I left the pieces of it on the floor, and walked away. I've no intentions of repairing it ever again.

[Zeitgeist Manifesto]

This is simple yet complex. There is vulnerability but still confidence under the surface. We never know if it will be worth it. We never know if we dont try. That's what makes taking the first step in this poem special.

[Curtis.Lenker]

This is such a powerful poem. Great way to describe what its like to be afraid of falling in love and having your heart broken. I know where you are coming from here. This is very relatable to me and life. Great work here.

[Meliss@k]

Thank you so much! I really appreciate your review!

[Curtis.Lenker]

You are very welcome.