catfish part 1

Hey guys, i never write for other people, this is the first time so don't be too rude! sorry about the writing, i'm french and not perfect with english ! enjoy

I love how this computer keep all the old text i wrote. I love how when i open this app , i can see all of them , and feel crazy about it, cause after reading the first sentence, damn those texts are soooo weird. I also love how i planned how i was going to start this text, but of course I'm not doing it. Like, not at all ... Basically , i keep thinking. All the time. Mostly , about my relationship. This thing i share , with I believe, the love of my life. When I'm thinking about how it all started , it's giving me thousand of things to think about. The how and the why , are the biggest part of it. I would probably need to explain a little bit more about myself, before talking about how this amazing relationship started , so let's start with this.

I'm i girl , as far as i know. I'm 24 , and a half.  I'm from Quebec , Canada so yes, I'm French . Of course I'm also English , i currently live in Vancouver, B.C , because of this relationship .For the biggest part of my past , i always thought I'd be happier if i was born a boy. I like boys stuff , boys clothes , boys everything. Now you'll think , there's a lot of '' FTM '' ( female to male ) , nowadays , yes, this is totally true, but I'm a chicken. Scared of family members reaction, scared of having a bad result , scared of a lot of things ,scared of losing my love , even if i know, this would be one of the last thing that could make her walk away .Boys haircuts , i forgot. I LOVE short/shaved haircuts. I also wish i had a beard.

Ok, yes i know, short/shaved haircuts aren't only for boys, yeah right. I'm not being sexist, sorry. Anyway , I'm the sport type. The '' i love being all sweaty type '' . I just simply , wish i was born a boy. But then , I'm thinking , ( i don't mean to sound rude but , ) most guys are dicks, let's be honest. Would i think like them ? Would i act like them ? I don't know, because some of them, are ok. ( yes, some, very little amount are ) I'm kidding, I'm not judging. Everybody is different , gender would never really define any smart or stupid attribute. So yeah , this, is a little bit more about myself , so then when comes the time to explain how this relationship started, it might be easier to understand a lot of things. But basically ,  this is a kind of a catfish story . Sad but true. We are still one, this is why she is so precious.