Nothing

Alive me?
Barely
I am
Nothing

I'm trying
Really trying
To be happy
And not let
The Monster
Take Control

But it's not
Easy
The only thing
Left to try
I can't

There are some things
That work
But it's chemicals
In my brain
Reacting
It's not
Me

At work
I'm just
there
Like a zombie
Doing what they
Need
Like a puppet
I'm a puppet zombie

Life outside
I have nothing
I'm the last choice
Something else
Is always more
Important

I can see
Why
I am nothing

Safety is
Available
But only it's
Not really
There

Family?
Who's that?
They've bailed
A long time ago
Leaving me fighting
A long fight
That's tiring
Alone

I've reached
Out
Crying out
For help
No ones there

They do what
They think works
Or if they don't
See anything wrong
Anymore
Then I must be
Better

That
Is
A
Lie

Cause here
I am
Back to the
Same
Tiring Deathly Fight

I've almost
Gave up
Once
Who said I
Won't get
There Again?