Pure..Toxic..Love

Its easy to be curious about someone..
It is for me anyway,
I'm ALWAYS wondering...
but then,
for me,
its hard to find a person really intriguing...
Like actually intriguing,
Someone that prompts me to want to know more..
I find a vast difference here,
but not really..
Why is it that Im ONLY turned on by love??
REAL love that is..
TRUE love..Pure.. Toxic.. Love
I am not the least attracted,
or inticed with an individual
unless there is a deep love shared.
You know it immediatly..
It turns me on
I wonder about it...
Now I feel like I know exactly that kind of love.
I can feel it deeply just thinking about it..
The thing is though,
I really dont even think I believe it exsists..
I wonder..
Does it??
Has it ever??
If not, then how do I KNOW and feel it so?
Maybe its just the idea of it...
Ugh...
Then I think how f*****g trite and mean it really is..
Im wondering...
What is this love worth in the end?
Its a cheap thought..
A fathemless delusion
This kind of love,
REAL love
TRUE love,
Its a priceless,
Relentless,
and lucky
Gift.
Pure toxic love..
The only thing that turns me on.