Past

I have been struggling, I am struggling, this is an endless loop, I'll wait and wait until I find a way

It has been years, almost ten
I always told myself ' you're over it'
But am I? Will I ever get out?
But brain can never let go of that bit
I tried, and tried, over and over
It still drags me down to those lanes
Will I ever be okay? NOT SCARED?
It's a rabbit hole, and I'm scarred!
My memory never gives up
Rather forces me to
Suffered then, suffering now, why?
I want to love myself, and I believe
One fine day, I will, I will do!
I might be me running low on hope
But I'll try as I can't quit now
I came too far to turn back
I will try till my last breath, I vow.

Author's Note

I wish someone would help me escape my memories :)