Dysphoria

Dysphoria

A Poem by Nightfeather
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If one cannot forget, how will one ever escape Dysphoria?

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Dysphoria

Face my reality and show me your truth,

Because I want to become part of you,

So I can dissolve into your soul.

 

You cannot dream forever…

 

I have always loved my mortal youth,

But my time was gone before I knew,

All because of the heart you stole.

For lasting love is only for the few…

 

It is time to face your reality…

 

I am wasting all my times on your smiles…

 

You should just become true with yourself,

For it’s her smile that you always put on your shelf, 

 

Am I broken by my scattered change of heart?

Creating my own shameful piece of art

 

Prepare your soul, for this is the night…

 

Should I ‘stay’ or ‘runaway’?

For I couldn't’’ even see what was in that lovely mind,

Should I just go away...?

For I couldn't even find your tainted raindrop,

Was I really that blind…?

 

Come alive…

 

Will ‘this’ love make me better?

Or should I stay sick forever.

 

You can’t stomach it anymore…

 

Was she allergic for my love…?

Or was I just falsely in love…?

She was never meant to stay,

For her path was fated to be led astray….

 

This” was meant to be…



©Mitchell Samuël Gordon

© 2015 Nightfeather


Author's Note

Nightfeather
It is hard to forget a love of the past, because the love for that person wants to stay part of your future. I had trouble with forgetting a girl that I loved. I loved her for many years but never told her what I felt for her and I realized it too late that I should told her, for she has moved to another city. My memories of here were the only way to confess my feelings. I was always dreaming of alternate reality's but a alternate could never replace my reality. I learned to 'move on in that night. Talking so long to myself, so I could forget the pain and love.

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We never forget those we love ... they remain a part of us, forever. What matters is that we cherish those memories with fondness and not let it keep us from finding happiness once more.

I love the inner voice, between each stanza, like a voice of reason ...

"All because of the heart you stole.
For lasting love is only for the few…"

Those two lines are pivotal to the poem and guides the reader as to the true nature of the message.

There are so many obstacles to finding ... and indeed even seeing love. We don't always recognize the initial, faint murmers of our hearts. As it grows we start feeling more yet we hesitate. As it blooms into an unmistakable yearning, so deep and strong that we fear the words would leap from our mouths, we hesitate still ... now, our uncertainty replaced by fear of rejection.

Does one venture all and seek happiness? at the risk of friendship? or does one keep one's inner most feelings to one's self, orchestrating one's own torment.

"Nothing ventured, nothing gained ..." As awkward as it may be, initially, true friendship would weather the storm if the feeling is not mutual ...

Thanks for sharing the memory of your unrequited love.


Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Nightfeather

9 Years Ago

Your review has been the most beautiful and in depth review I have ever received. You have dissolved.. read more



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I love this poem. It's well written and you can feel the emotion.

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Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Nightfeather

9 Years Ago

Thank you for your kind words :)
I think everyone should read this. Everyone has experienced this dysphoria and it's sadomasochism because it's a potion of love and hate. You really put your ripped out intestines in this one.

This review was written for a previous version of this writing

Posted 9 Years Ago


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Nightfeather

9 Years Ago

You are right and thank you for your kind and awesome words :)

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Tags: Poetry, Philosofy, Love, Forgetting, Pain

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