Who do you want me to be?

I've been broken, torn, walked on, talked down to, insulted, beaten and bruised…… and yet there is an expectation for me to be something I'm not

You tell me, 'So and so is such an amazing person, juggling being a mom and a wife.. Everything she does is the best, and she is so sweet and put together….' I know I am not these things but what do you want me to do? How do you think it makes me feel when I hear these words? God knows I would never say these things to you…

You tell me I am an embarrassment, your friend's kids aren't like this; deadbeat, depressed, unmotivated.. What do you want from me? Who do you want me to be?

When it gets down to the wire and I'm ready to quit then the compliments come…. You are beautiful, you will say… you have a great personality that makes people want to be around you….. And yet straighten up, get your act together, don't be who you are… its not acceptable, to us or anyone who knows us.

But I guess there is only so much I can do, only nothing I can say anymore…. Just take it, like a champ, just take it with a grain of salt anymore….