Prayers From an Agnostic II

Hey there, whoever.

Looks like I'm at it again.

Praying to something I'm having trouble believing in.

I mentioned it before, but I'm new to this.

But, I need your help.

So, please just listen. 

I'm still scarred from all those episodes with so-called friends.

It all went down in sixth grade,

Who knew 12-year-olds knew how to hate?

The rest of middle school was a blur to me, 

It came and went painfully, but quickly.

But who cares about petty prepubescent drama?

Let's skip to the more significant traumas...

Eleventh grade came around and I met the love of my life.

But, we fought and cried and broke up and got back together.

And we broke each other's hearts.

And it was disgusting bliss. 

And as much as I loved him, I hated our relationship.

Then he abandoned me for the military, and left me to miss him.

Then we got evicted from our house and have to live in a one bedroom.

I work 9-5 on one job and sometimes I work two.

And I'm only 18.

I didn't even graduate high school or apply to college.

But, it's probably not my scene.

And I'm already tired, Lord.

Yahweh.

Buddah.

Jesus.

God.

Whoever is up there and can help.

I don't think I can ask anyone else.

I want out.

And I guess there's only one way through this.

Again, I'm sorry I'm so desperate.

Although it may be hypocritical, please answer the prayers from an agnostic.