Who

Without makeup on or earrings in, do I still look beautiful?

I've got my hair tied up in a black rubber-band.

I'm not feeling very colorful.

Looking back at it, I don't really know what kind of relationship we had.

I know she was smarter, 

But please tell me that I'm not half bad.

This is who you turned me into.

Dark hair, dark heart.

Who am I now?

Without any clothes on, tell me am I still as ugly as you left me?

I have to start over with a brand new lover, 

But I have no stories of old money. 

Which means I cannot relate to anyone else, 

Like I thought I could relate to you.

You took my multicolored world and

Smashed it in your hands til it was only black and blue.

Looking back it, our relationship wasn't half bad. 

He wasn't sexier than you,

But he gave me the happiness that I never had.

This is who you turned me into.

Dark hair, dark heart.

Dark mind, dark thoughts.

Who am I now, who am I now?

Growing up, I never was the smartest.

I never was the prettiest. 

I never was the loudest, never was the funniest. 

Growing up, I never was the coolest, never was the skinniest.

But, still you chose me. 

And then you broke me. 

Now I'm the most brokenhearted.

Reviews

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

This is very well written
It does however maybe correct me if I’m wrong ....show someone that’s maybe been dumped for someone you think is better than you or even prettier

Don’t let your self worth or your self esteem or any thoughts of yourself be dependent on someone’s else’s opinion or treatments of you because I’ve learnt it’s a long hard road if you do that.
I’m old now
I used to always react to how others treated me one wrong word or sly look set my whole week or month up for self hate and loathe
Use the time alone without this person to love yourself find yourself and see all your attributes in a positive light
The poem is very good and the message is very clear That you conveyed

[mcceewrites]

Thank you for your thoughtful and inspiring review, Julie. I truly appreciate you reading! Thank you :)

[Courtney Hough]

Okay, this imagery is really good. I could see it all. The other thing I really liked about this is I could put myself in it. It’s amazing isn’t it when we meet someone who’s not the best for us but the make us think, “maybe I am prettier than I give myself credit.” Then the do what we knew they would all along. The break our hearts. That’s how I felt reading this. And it doesn’t matter who tells us that we are beautiful...we just don’t believe it. But you totally are! You can see it in the way you write your thoughts down. Even if we feel dark I feel like that’s the best place to be sometimes because light reaches you in a way nothing else will and you come up with masterpieces like this. The best part; you never know how many people needed to hear/read this for whatever reason. Sorry I’m super wordy tonight haha. But I realllllllllly enjoyed this poem my friend! All the best!:)

[mcceewrites]

Courtney, thank you so much for your in depth review! I truly appreciate the time you took out to read and actually have something to say. I love reading wordy, so never apologize for that! I really hope that someone needed to hear this! Thank you again :)