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random rambling

I thought I would be alright. I thought I could handle it, you, her.

I was wrong.

I was wrong about the way I would feel. I was wrong about the way your would look at me. I was wrong about the way you would act and react. I was wrong.

I thought I could be strong. I thought if I pretended everything was okay then it would be. I thought I could play it cool and just get through one night. I was wrong.

I thought if I dressed up then you wouldnt be able to take your eyes off me. I thought if I was with your friends, you would have to talk to me. I thought if I pretended I didnt know she was there, she would disappear. I was wrong.

I thought that maybe you would be overwhelmed with seeing me again. I thought you might just realize the effect you have on me. I thought you would be excited to see me. I was wrong.

I thought you wanted me there. I thought I was strong enough. I thought if I put up my wall you couldnt hurt me. I thought I wouldnt cry. I was wrong.

I thought I was ready for this. I thought I could handle ts, you, her.

I was wrong.

6-10-04

Author's Note

these are soooo old! haha