the value of your own worth

I thought she was a perfect match
So striking the way she lit up my face that fast
The spark was brilliant, but the flame didn’t last
Nights out drinking turned into pain and wrath
And each injury sustained was simply bandaged and wrapped
Not even healing before the next lashing overlapped
Till finally one day my bones gave out and smashed
I wondered if I would ever be the same after that
Looking at the pain from the gash
I felt my burnt hands would never be able to maintain in their grasp
An endless love that would stay lit instead of burning out and blaming a draft
I realized that I was looking for a match that would last
To feed an addiction that spread like a cancerous path
Because I felt like I was just a cigarette and only worthy of the ash
Not realizing that I am candle and am made out of wax
So instead of choking, that’s when I let out a gasp
And promised to give myself much more than that
What hurts the most is knowing I had stabbed my own back
But when you don’t know the value of your own worth you search for something that’s lack
And you will do anything to just keep what you might have had in tact

Candles are meant to shine light into lives not be discarded in the trash
So I lived for a while on my own because in order to heal you must cast
And when I took it off I realized that what I was missing was a simple fact
A lesson that only comes when we see ourselves outside of our box and our pack

We often mistake love for a quick fix and brilliant flash until it burns us and our lungs turn black
But true love is like a wick that melts with you and remains inside your heart as long as you last  

Author's Note

A story about my philosophies on love

Reviews

[Poeticadia]

Great imagery! The poem reads really well... like performance poetry. Enjoyed.

[Matthew vonHone]

Great work Shoaib. Like George said, I can definitely feel a beat from your writing. The rhythm is palpable and engaging. Keep writing.

[George Korolog]

This is really great lyrical stuff Shoaib. Like Jennika, I also, in my mind, saw this as potential rap dialogue. It has the beat, it has the turns, it has the story. You might seriously want to re-write this is a pure rap format and trying sending it to some labels.

[Jennika has a short att..]

Wow, this is really good. Don't know if you care or not, but I had a visual image of Eminem rapping this to me. Just sayinn' xD I really do like it though, and I think it's well written. I don't really agree with everything said, but opinions differ. What matters is that it all flowed together where I pictured a rapper rapping it xD
Jennika