hurt

The end came with winter’s first frost
Is it okay with you that friendship was the cost?
The December snow fell and the heart I won got lost
Remember your hearted I’s and hearts criss crossed?
We all trip up but not all of us grow soft
The same heart you ripped up, spit at trust and walked it off
And it’s true I used my words as my weapons
but I’m still rendered helpless against your swords of deception
I surrendered to neglected moments of affection
The communication’s cease holds up my chords when they mention
Your name… this blame game, s**t it’s all same with misguided conceptions
Self-made inventions without verbal intervention
I see myself fade from all known convention
So I thought to myself should I ignore her or choose confrontation
Knowing either way we would lose our safe stations
Like black holes in space I feel like I’m falling from grace
And the only way to save face dissipates my patience
Knowing the significance of hate’s connotations
Feeling it seems to emancipate my hurt mind’s emotional abrasions
All this time I’ve been running I don’t know what towards
I think now I was running away but time forced me to spring forwards
I don’t know what I was thinking the day I spoke those three words
Because when I saw you laugh I thought it would last
Just how were you able to catch me in your grasp?
I latched on to you and I guess I got to attached
OH! that night we danced
then you told me that “friend” was a new romance
I can’t… I won’t do this b***h, I already gave you a second chance
So look at me now and say what you want to say because when I walk away
I’m not going to give you a second glance
Some stories need to be told and just can’t be summarized
Stolen glances you stole from my soul with those summer eyes
I guess I’ll see you around, round like your deep brown iris
I still feel your affect, the side effect of my love was blindness
When I went home that night I said to myself “Would I risk?”
Knowing the truth or get left hunting the youth missed
What the f**k was in you that I couldn’t resist?
I don’t want to reminisce on the kiss
I wish I didn’t know what it was like because they say “ignorance is bliss”
And as the pain became deep
I let myself sink beneath
I’ll never forget how the light faded to white
The night you made my sky turn black
Seems we said words we didn’t mean but we can never have this time took back
This is not a dream, I told you once leave I’ll never have my eyes look back
I just thought you lay inside me when you sat beside my side
Do you know what it’s like to be filled with cries
That just can’t subside because you placed contrived lies where my soul resides?
Apart from ties new guises arise
The sunsets survive but their constant tries to rise
I’ve just about given up, I just don’t give a f**k
Don’t believe in all that mushy stuff or luck
In essence the blessing of fate’s testing atrophied my faith in relying and guessing,
Loving not lusting, on it and stressing I was honest and trusting
Looking above I see white doves regressing
I confess for the longest time I was suppressing
Obsessing over what I would say to you and distressing
Over and over sequentially, consequentially it was played in my head
Eloquently spoken but silence was the only thing actually said
Funny how at one time your love to me was essential
You were quintessential; my someone special
But love like hate has the potential to grow exponential
Maybe she’ll think about me one day and then she’ll…
F**k it, I don’t know what I what her to say or know how she’ll feel
I just want to find someone to carry me away and show me love that’s real
I long for the day when this flame fades away like the sun into the shade
Because soon we’ll go our separate ways, the price being paid, I will not be the one afraid
So deep we were into, and despite all the s**t we’ve been through

I want to live… and yes, I want you to live too
And I want you to be happy… I just don’t think I can ever forgive you

Reviews

[Christie Moses]

every word of this bleeds deep....and you write it out like sketches of pain on a persons heart. I feel this and I am sure every person who has ever been betrayed by love will feel it as well. Brilliant and so honest. This is what REAL poetry is about. Stains of heart and soul on a page ;)

[Coffee Vampier]

wow this is very deep... its amazing the emotion felt through reading this. I sadly but true i can tell that others can relate to you. being able to relate will pull people in. lovely write.

keep on keep on

[Joiedevivre]

I think you distill here the hurt of betrayal that many of us have felt at some time so eloquently and almost lyrically. I can hear this spoken in rhythm. Excellent verse.

[Liz]

This is extremely powerful and amazingly descriptive! I love it, i can relate to many of the lines here. Nice write!(:

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Love is like the wind..tangible but not quite..this is perfectly metered..the flow is keen and yours words sublime in expressing the emotions..