Never Have I Ever

Have you ever been high

LIke

On purpose

Not just that after surgery morphine s**t

Have you ever taken something you shouldn't have 

just to stop feeling

And have you ever been so sad

But for no reason at all'

Have you ever stared at a blank wall

and had suddenly felt a warm stream down your cheek

Have you ever been stresssed

Because of nothing

And everything at once

And have you ever overflown with emotion so much 

you ended up numb

And i would answer seriously

I would take some sunscreen 

and water and pringles to a deserted island

But in the end we only take our minds

And have you ever been a prisoner

In a cell you guard yourself

And have you ever been so alone

In such a crowded space

So I will leave this party early

Your laughter made me feel more alone than the blank wall

Because you've never stared at one 

and felt a tear crawl down for no reason at all

And you only get sad when you're alone on Valentine's

and that's great for you

But I am always the one who loves more

Who cries more

Who laughs more

The sun is always too bright

And I am always too pale

My skin

My voice

My thoughts

All too pale

Which is why I would take sunscreen to a deserted island

Which is why I will always be alone.