your name

it's like a bell, but it rings so loud.

Your name

Your name

Your name

It's brutal,

and hateful,

and it makes my hateful

I used to call

your name

your name

your name

beg for your 

love and 

weep for your

disdain

your name 

your name

your name

I can't remember my home

my life

my happiness

but I can remember

that blasphemous,

beautiful,

utterly disgusting

name

name

you.