Be it So

this one's an oldie.

friends turning to enemies and enemies to friends. voices screaming in my head. i wish i could pretend - that i were half the man you seem to think i am. and that i am happy with the person i am. but there's just no way that ever could happen. turns out i'm a piece of s**t and that's how i've always been.

 

i can't stop - i'm in too deep. i want to die - yet life i keep. why can't i - just let go?  i hate myself - be it so.

 

love turns to hate in me, hate turns to regret. people in the middle getting real upset. my heart keeps telling me to stop but my mind's influence wins. throw drugs in the middle and that's how it really is. i just pray to god that's not how the story ends. 

 

i can't stop - i'm in too deep. i want to die - yet life i keep. why can't i - just let go?  i hate myself - be it so.

 

yea that's really me, but i hope you'll never see. but for that sake of hope, i'll act like i'm the sick f**k you think you know. i desperately want to change but for now i guess it shall be so.

 

 can't stop - i'm in too deep. i want to die - yet life i keep. why can't i - just let go?  i hate myself - be it so

Reviews

[Sunflower 20]

this is very sad and eye opening. it brings a whole new perspective on life.
very good writing. :)